When one door closes another opens.

A few weeks ago I had to put my dog to sleep.  I got Lucy when she was a puppy and had her for 9 years before she got sick.  She was perfectly fine one day and the next she was deteriorating before my eyes.  The vet said she had diabetes and something wrong with her pancreas.  Even if I could have afforded to treat the diabetes, there was nothing we could do about her pancreas.  The vet said there was not a cure and a "treatment" would be overnight (3 days at a time) stays where they would basically starve her and give her an IV to make sure she didn't get dehydrated.  The reason for not feeding her would be to give her pancreas a rest, only for her to eat later and get sick (she was vomiting everything, even water at this point). It broke my heart but I knew it had to be done so the next day Lucy went to the vet to get put down.

This is my baby right before we loaded her
 into the car to take to the vet. You can see how sick and
 rundown she looks.  She did not look anywhere near
like that a few days before.

Every day after that when I would walk into my house there was an empty hole, like a blank space in a canvas.  My heart echoed the emptiness of my house.  It came to the point that I dreaded walking into my house, to not be greeted at the door, to see her dog hair stuck to everything (labs shed like crazy!).

I knew I wasn't ready for another dog.  It was too soon but I couldn't handle the emptiness any longer.  I needed someone to fill the silence and my empty heart.  I went to my local animal shelter three days ago and adopted this little ball of fur..

I named the kitten Phoenix (Nix for short) after one of my favorite book characters from Kresley Cole's Immortals After Dark series.  Nix is two months old and about two pounds.  He is calm and extremely affectionate to the point where you have to tell him, "leave me alone for two minutes while I try to eat!"  I love the little guy and know I made the right decision to adopt him.  

The pain from losing Lucy is still there and to some degree will always lurk in my heart.  However, out of the dark can come some light and I'm sure Nix would agree.  Without Lucy's passing, he might not have been adopted or have stayed in the shelter for an indefinite amount of time.  So, if your in pain from losing a pet of any species/breed, my heart goes out to you.  I'm not saying to go out and adopt/buy a pet, etc. but when one door closes, another one opens.  However it happens for you, it will happen.

Poetry Corner

Hi everyone!  Thanks for all the great feedback via message, my friend really appreciated the positive comments.  She actually wrote another one she wanted to share.  This one is about a break up she went through.  She also wanted me to share this quote with you that she said "fit the situation perfectly."

"Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is wonderful stroke of luck."  -Dalai Lama

Free Woman

I didn't know what to do without you until I realized I was a free creature.

Free to open my wings,

Free to explore,

Free to express myself in ways I never thought to,

Free to have fun.

I didn't know if I could live without you,

Now I wonder if I lived at all with you.

Suffocated by what I thought I needed,

Hidden away by choices that were made, some mine and some by him.

After good-byes were spoke, I realized I was free.

A free creature,

A free woman,

Free of emotional anxiety,

Free of tears not my own,

Free of wants made for me.

Free to be myself,

A free woman.

Thanks guys and dolls!  Until next time, please feel free to comment (positive only please) or the contact page if you so wish to submit any of your own work you would like to share.  

Poetry Corner

Hi everyone!  I cannot believe it has been over a year since I have posted anything.  I have been so insanely busy with my life... college, stalker-exs (don't ask), new baby in the house (not mine!), and a new job too.  This summer has been filled with a second job and a huge renovation project.  It has been crazy!!

Since it has been so long since I have last posted, I thought I could shake things up from the (old) norm of what I used to post (reviews) and start something new.... Poetry Corner!  If anyone would like to submit a poem, short story, etc. (make sure it is your own!!!) then please feel free to do so in the contact section of the blog, not in the comments below.  Just send a message with your work and I will have it published on the blog.

Okay, so getting down to it, here is the first poem in K&K's Poetry Corner.  This was written by a very close friend of mine.

Point A, Point B

It doesn't matter how,

It doesn't matter why,

It doesn't matter where,

It's that you get there.

Some go left,

Some go right,

East, West, North, South

Different paths but going in the same direction.

We all start somewhere,

And off we go.

Some take detours,

Some take a path less traveled.

Our destination is our goal,

Our experiences part of the journey,

Our scars come from the bumps in the road.

Some travels take longer than others,

With scenic routes taken too long.

But, it doesn't matter.

It only matters that you get from Point A to Point B. 

Thank you to everyone who stuck through the long intro to read the first poem in Poetry Corner and I hope to see many of your own submissions soon!  If you wish to submit but remain anonymous, remember that that is always an option.